Holy Shit

Damn, I haven't logged on here in a while. Occasionally I've logged on to check out some Postsecrets, but that's about it. I'm sorry for never writing, I only stopped because my friend Jim advised me to write in a journal rather than venting my heart out to the internet. It's really helped, and it's fun to look back at this blog and my journal and see how I've changed but remained as positive as ever. Well, let's see, what's been happening with Stephie these past few months. The biggest thing that's happened is that I have a boyfriend, his name is Bobby and I feel incredibly lucky to have him in my life. I met him a month before he left for boot camp, started dating him a week before he left, and I like him so very much. He's in boot camp training to be a Marine. I can only talk to him through letters for the time being, and I miss him insanely. My friend Amanda is no longer my best friend, I grew out of her as so often it happens to teenagers. She's immature and I'm growing distant from her as I continue to embrace change in my life. Robbie was almost a constant nuisance for a while, but I'm becoming a pro at ignoring him, and he is no longer an issue. I stopped smoking weed because it began to give me some sort of attacks where my heart would speed up and I couldn't breathe. I also haven't gone drinking in a couple months. Most people would call me a pussy for not smoking weed anymore, but personally, I'm quite happy with my decision for now. I do love weed, and I have great memories, but I'm much more aware of everything these days without it and I'm passing school with all 80s and 90s for the first time since middle school. Val is still amazing and creative as ever, and I love her more as the days go on. I've written a couple poems which I'll post here in seperate blogs. Things are tense with my family right now, but I'm sure the people causing the tension will realize how silly it is to cause it and that family is almost top priorety. I think they have a little more maturing to do before they have that revelation, though. That's basically it for what's been going on with me. After a long Winter, the weather is gorgeous and it's quite warm these days with beautiful Spring showers every few days. I'm quite content for now, but then again when am I ever not?