Idiot

People don't believe me when I say that I'm stupid. I really fucking am. I flipped out on my suicidal best friend. Now he's moving and he went all emo and it's all my fault! Why can't I be nice and sweet like I want to be? I'm always so mean! Always. I want to start over, I need new people. People that I'll be nice to, who I'll love, and who won't get sick of me. I'll start over, and maybe no one will ever see the real me again. That would save everyone so much pain.