I had a bunch of random ideas today, and had to get them out. Since I doubt anyone's really interested in little Stephie's thoughts, I thought I'd write it for the entire internet to see. Woot, great idea.
Why does everyone think being alone would be so bad? You're constantly seeing stupid little quotes like "Why do relationships have to be so hard? Because the only thing harder is being alone." Seriously, I wouldn't mind being alone. Relationships must be a pain in the ass, I wouldn't really know seeing as I haven't ever been in a serious one. Really though, what a horrible thing it must be to have to open up to this one person, knowing that more often that not the chances are he's going to leave you. I hope I never fall in love, and I'm certainly never getting married. Regular love is fine, like with friends and family. But falling in love is a huge no-no for me. I think falling in love is just a huge delicious recipe for hurt. Seriously, I can think of so many things that could go wrong with falling in love. (He cheats, he leaves you, he doesn't love you back, etc.) I can only think of one good thing coming out of falling in love. You're both happy. That's something you only see in the movies. C'mon people, when's the last time you saw a happy couple last? Hah, not too much, eh? Only newlyweds are happy. Then after a year, they go 'Fuck, I picked this person to spend the rest of my life with? What the fuck was I thinking?' and all hell breaks loose. To be alone, though. To never have to worry about the atrocities of love, that would be the life for me. I'd travel, everywhere. I'd go to Europe first, though, get the hell out of this mess we call the "United" States of America. France, Italy, I'd most deffinitely go to Ireland too. So much scenery! Deffinitely my kind of place. Grass and sunshine, it's beautiful. When you're tied down by another person, though, you can't do what you want anymore. Especially if you're with someone who thinks it's all about them. God, I'd love to be alone for the rest of my life, it really doesn't sound that bad. Why do we need another person anyways? We were fine on our own to begin with, right? I know I'm fine being alone...even if I have a boyfriend right now. Eh, he'll probably break up with me soon because I won't go swimming with him, hah. High school. Fun. After him, I don't think I'm ever dating again. I really want him to last though...he's so amazing. Not like normal guys, he treats me so...right. Like a perfect boyfriend. His hormones take over a little too much than I'd like though. Anyways, being alone? That's the perfect life.
Today I was sort of...under the influence with my friend. I was sitting on her bed and I had this dumb epiphony. It seemed to make sense at the time, but now I don't know what to make of it. The only reason I remember it is because I wrote it as a note in my phone, hah. Here's what I wrote: "I believe balance plays a big part in life, in everything. Like walking on a tightrope. Good and bad things happening is just us losing our balance on the tightrope. We lose our balance and it's what keeps life a thrill." It actually makes me think. Everything could have to do with a certain balance...and when we slip a certain way, that's when the bad things happen. If we slip the other way, that's when the good things happen. It's life, ya know? The whole idea of life is pretty damn simple to me, I don't understand why no one else gets it...
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