January 9th, 2009

We started academics today, and failing Science is inevitable. My dad wants me go to college. I can barely pass high school, how am I expected to pass college? I did well in my other classes, though, which I'm very pleased about.I wrote a letter to my best friend today, the longest letter I've ever written I believe. I apologized for lying to her. She's fucking my first love, and I told her it was okay. I explained in the letter that that was a lie and that I was an emotional wreck when she told me the news. I was so distraught. After I wrote the letter, I realized that I feel so much better about the whole situation. I hope she's not mad at me for lying to her. My whole heart is in that letter, I even told her who I think I love now. I miss him.Things have been very boring since I got grounded. I downloaded some music in school so I could listen to it at home, so at least I'm not completely alone. I also have my four PostSecret books that I recieved for Christmas, so I always have friends with me to relate to when I'm down. I currently have plenty of cigarettes, so I'm very happy. I got so bored last week that I rolled all the pennies I had in my room. I made $7.50. I have 750 pennies lying around my room, holy shit. I also fried my vacuum cleaner, so that doesn't work anymore and my bedroom floor is now completely covered in cat and dog hair.It feels nice to be writing this blog, so I think I'll continue...Hm, what to say? I'm very content right now, listening to Daphne Wilis and Michael Buble. I took the Christmas lights down in my room which is quite sad because they added a nice glow to my room. I still have to finish my room, actually...I have to decorate my walls some more and put up pictures on my bulletin bored. There's a lot to keep myself occupied during my solicitation. I was getting a ride home today from my friend's boyfriend when we saw a purple giant bouncy ball in the street. So...I ran out of the car while we were in traffic and snatched it up and brought it home. It's quite dirty so I'll have to wash it off before I play with it. Yay! More amusement! God...whoever is reading this must seriously have no life because this is the most boring, random ranting I've ever done on my blog. Maybe I'll watch a DVD after this...Juno or Pride & Prejudice or Across the Universe or something. Maybe even P.S. I Love You.
You know, I was having an interesting thought today. I really wish I was an extraordinary person. You know those girls in the movies that you see, the girls that the boys fall in love with for their personalities and manerisms rather than their bodies? I want to be one of those girls. An extraordinary girl. I was bothered all day by my friend Lucas, he kept asking me out and asking me to fuck him when I clearly have said no to both...multiple times. It was quite annoying and I was terrified that he was going to kiss me. That would've caused immense problems.Anyways I think I'm done with my rambling for today, 'til the next blog!